病房日记
卡西木只有十八岁,刚进大学。看上去长的高大硕壮,喜欢打篮球,头发浓密漆黑,一双大眼睛,在病房里第一次见他,一看last name 默罕默德,猜测他有阿拉伯血统。
他在打篮球时突然感觉胸闷不适,同学们立即把他送来了医院急诊室。两天后在病房里见他,满屋子的男女年轻人围着他,嘻哈欢笑,看样子经过给氧,输液,休息后,他的状况好多了,护士告诉我,只是还在等一些血液的报告,并且心脏专科医生会诊,医嘱要做一些心脏功能的检查。
过了一星期,知道他情况好转,转到2楼另一间病房,上午一早去病房看他,只见他侧赴卧在床上,睡得很熟的样子,我当时想,就不打扰他,过后再来吧。
谁知过了大概一小时左右,医院的广播喇叭里呼叫 “code blue 2300", code blue是医院密码表示病房有急救情况,我开始没意识到是卡西木的病房,等我赶到病房,急救的team 和红色code car已在病房做抢救,我靠近病床看着卡西木心里一沉,他双眼突出,瞳孔已放大,尽管CPR,一切急救措施都用上,但35分钟后,主治医师宣布抢救无效,诊断是PA 引发MI,通知家属。
这么年轻的病人死亡,抢救无效对医生来说,特别是实习医生会沮丧,我更是心理暗暗愧疚,早晨没有把他唤醒,可能那一刻他并不是熟睡,而是已经非常不舒服,或者已经不省人事。。。。。。家属来了,伤心欲绝。
Fragile,真是生命的脆弱。
If blood will flow when flesh and steel are one
Drying in the color of the evening sun
Tomorrow's rain will wash the stains away
But something in our minds will always stay
Drying in the color of the evening sun
Tomorrow's rain will wash the stains away
But something in our minds will always stay
Perhaps this final act was meant
To clinch a lifetime's argument
That nothing comes from violence and nothing ever could
To clinch a lifetime's argument
That nothing comes from violence and nothing ever could
For all those born beneath an angry star
Lest we forget how fragile we are
Lest we forget how fragile we are
On and on the rain will fall
Like tears from a star
like tears from a star
On and on the rain will say
On and on the rain will say
How fragile we are
how fragile we are
how fragile we are