乱世无佳人

“黑人的命也是命”运动原来在2014年由三名妇女发起，分别是加尔萨（Alicia Garza）、帕特希·库拉斯和欧帕尔·托米（Opal Tometi）。当年，密苏里州弗格森的布朗（Michael Brown）和纽约市的加纳（Eric Garner），在与警察对抗中丧生。随后加尔萨在 Facebook 上写了一篇题为《一篇给黑人的爱的笔记》（A Love Note to Black People）的帖子。她在帖子中写道：“我们的生命很重要，黑人的生命很重要”（Our Lives Matter, Black Lives Matter）。之后，抗议活动爆发。“黑人的命也是命”这个口号由此出现并迅速流行。

同时艾丽西亚·加尔萨、帕特希·库拉斯和欧帕尔·托米以Black Lives Matter 建立了网络。艾丽西亚·加尔萨将这一网络形容为一个网上平台，这个平台的存在给活动者们提供了一套共享的原则和目标。

网站的声明之一：“我们建立一个肯定黑人妇女的空间，这里没有性别歧视，没有厌女症，没有以男性为中心的环境……我们通过相互支持，成为彼此的大家庭和‘村庄’，从而消灭西方（文明）定规的核子家庭结构的要求。”

而且BLM运动的三位女创始人Garza， Cullors 和Tometi 全都为美国共产主义激进组织之一的“自由社会主义之路FRSO”工作，而FRSO和“解放之路”在美国的暴力示威抗议里扮演了组织领导的角色。FRSO与5月26日在推特发布FRSO-FightBack指令，27日呼吁“继续战斗”，并呼吁与50月30日大搞全国性抗议。 

6月1日，FRSO在脸书上书写“对反动派造反有理，我们向你们表示热烈的支持----毛”（这是毛泽东给清华附中红卫兵的一封信里的话）！ 这一切被左倾化的民主党利用，作为其争取非裔全力支持以赢得近年的总统竞选的一部分。惊讶在美国追随毛的女性也不少。

2020年6月5日，美国华盛顿特区黑人女市长梅利爾·巴烏斯爾下令将西北第16街通往白宫北门的一段路命名为“黑人的命也是命广场”，同时街道地面也被涂上巨大的“Black Lives Matter”字样，以此向抗议乔治·弗洛伊德之死的示威者致敬。在新闻发布会上鲍泽是这样说的：有些人渴望被倾听和被人看到，渴望他们的人性得到承认，我们有机会在我们城市的一条非常重要的街道上，大声而清晰地传达这一信息：黑人的命也是命..

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在示威者们高喊“我不能呼吸”、“黑人的命也是命-BLM”、等口号，在全美各地声势浩大地示威抗议，伴随疯狂的打砸抢烧。有些人把抢劫来的用不了的货物送给亲友甚至公然在网上低价兜售。有些极端的年轻白女人们甚至打出“I ONLY SUCK BLACK DICK ”的耀眼口号，并配上同样内容的T恤衫，支持这些示威活动。乖乖隆地动。

众议院议长佩洛西等驴党政客都向弗洛伊德及全美非裔人下跪致哀（谢罪），这太政治秀了吧，能对全美国人进行舆论施压和道德绑架，以赢得更多的民意？

据福克斯新闻6月17日报道，西雅图自治区的领袖之一、非裔女性革雷声Grayson，接受采访时说，自治区组织的要求必须得到满足，否则要采取更进一步的极端行动。他们的要求包括取消警察、监狱、法庭和整个司法系统。

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这场“黑人的命也是命”运动闹得凶的城市都是民主党执政， 其中女性主义者在这场“黑人命也是命”的运动中还真发挥了很大的作用。谁说乱世无佳人。呵呵

浪潮...... the wave

 

黑人乔治·弗洛伊德之死掀起了愤怒发泄的浪潮，以BLM运动的名义游行，抗议，骚乱，烧毁，抢劫，警察被杀，继而refund police, 西雅图占领没有警察的“自治区”，历史的雕塑人物被砍头推倒，焚烧国旗，下跪，喊出不要警察，摧毁法制，摧毁政府系统，毫无顾忌瘟疫流感还在，这股愤怒的浪潮是来自于几个月疫情恐惧下的爆发，还是美国的种族歧视黑人和警察冲突真的需要一场革命。其实许多人很明白，黑人难道忘了一次次抗议暴动的历史。民意一旦如果被政客利用，真理的善良将被亵渎，年轻人就是殉葬品了。这让我想起一部电影《The wave》。一堂大学里的实验课即可煽起年轻人的冲动，激情振奋，聚集力量......

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The Wave is a subversive made-for-TV movie directed by Alex Grasshoff, based on The Third Wave experiment put on by teacher Ron Jones in order to explain to his students how the German populace could accept the actions of the Nazi regime during the Second World War.Though later featured as an episode of the ABC Afterschool Special series, this show debuted October 4, 1981, almost two years before being featured in the series.

It starred Bruce Davison as the teacher Ben Ross, a character based on Jones.

A novelization of the film The Wave, was released in the same year. Ron Jones' writings and Johnny Dawkins' screenplay were also basis of the 2008 German film Die Welle.

Summary

High school social studies teacher Ben Ross shows his class a film about the Holocaust. When the students question how the German people could have allowed such a thing to occur, Ross finds himself unable to answer their questions. Instead he begins a classroom experiment to demonstrate the dangers of discipline, community, and fascism. The experiment begins simply, with Ross demonstrating how proper posture and simple rules create greater classroom efficiency. The students follow the new rules so enthusiastically that Ross carries on the experiment the following day by introducing "the Wave," which he claims is a youth movement. Students are issued membership cards, taught a secret Wave salute, and are given special duties. Robert, an unpopular student, is assigned the role of a monitor over the other students, which fills him with pride.

David, a student in the class, believes that the in-class rules will help the school's football team and begins to teach the Wave tenets to his fellow football players. With the popular football players involved, the rest of the school becomes intrigued. By the end of the week, the Wave has spread beyond the classroom. Robert, who has developed new confidence and authority due to the movement, becomes one of its more zealous enforcers and reports unorthodox behavior to Ross and the other members. David's girlfriend Laurie is unnerved by the Wave, while Ross's wife worries that Ross has introduced a concept he cannot control.

The following day, a school pep rally turns into a rally for the Wave, causing some 200 more students to join. Laurie decides to write an exposé about the Wave for the school paper, causing David to break up with her and her friends to reject her. Other students outside the movement are bullied by the Third Wave and begin voicing their concerns to parents and administrators, who in turn complain to Ross. Ross begs for enough time to complete the experiment.

When the exposé is published, the Wave denounces the school paper and singles out Laurie for hostility. Fearing for her safety, David warns her to stop speaking out, eventually growing violent enough to push her to the ground. This causes David to realize how far things have gone. David and Laurie visit Ross and beg him to speak out against the movement. Ross, realizing the experiment is out of control, promises them that he will put an end to it.

The following day in class, Ross tells students that the Wave is a real youth movement taking place in schools all over the country and that the movement's leader will give a televised speech at a rally the following day. The Wave students eagerly gather to watch the speech, only to be shown a film of Adolf Hitler leading a Nazi rally. Ross announces that this is their leader and that the experiment proves how quickly a group can give up their individual beliefs. The stunned students throw away their armbands and leave the rally, but Robert, who has been given his first sense of belonging by the movement, is left in tears. Ross takes Robert away to console him.

比尔盖茨---summer book list 2020

比尔盖茨推荐的2020 年夏季书单在疫情尚未远离的不确定的时候出台了，其中一本《大流感The Great Influenza》是对流感疫情1918年的大流感做历史性的比较，比尔盖茨认为这本书是一个很好的提醒，尽管医学更进步了，现代人仍面临诸多挑战。其中只有《云图Cloud Atlas》是六个故事组成的小说，据悉而且已被拍成了电影。六个故事的主角各有各自生存的危机故事，人物有医生，音乐作曲家，记者，出版商，复制人女孩，末日时代生存在残余文明小岛的男孩，内容丰富离奇，看来比较有趣适合夏季闲览,。其他三本诸如调整心理的犹太人幸存者，高层CEO如何领导迪士尼过度变革，诺贝尔经济奖得主谈各国如何面临世界的困难时期，不知是比尔盖茨老了，还是精彩好书缺缺，书都有些老调重弹的味道提不起胃口，不过青菜萝卜各人喜爱，呵呵。

《选择The Choice》, by Dr. Edith Eva Eger. 

This book is partly a memoir and partly a guide to processing trauma. Eger was only sixteen years old when she and her family got sent to Auschwitz. After surviving unbelievable horrors, she moved to the United States and became a therapist. Her unique background gives her amazing insight, and I think many people will find comfort right now from her suggestions on how to handle difficult situations.

《云图Cloud Atlas》, by David Mitchell. 

This is the kind of novel you’ll think and talk about for a long time after you finish it. The plot is a bit hard to explain, because it involves six inter-related stories that take place centuries apart (including one I particularly loved about a young American doctor on a sailing ship in the South Pacific in the mid-1800s). But if you’re in the mood for a really compelling tale about the best and worst of humanity, I think you’ll find yourself as engrossed in it as I was.

《生命之旅The Ride of a Lifetime》, by Bob Iger. 

This is one of the best business books I’ve read in several years. Iger does a terrific job explaining what it’s really like to be the CEO of a large company. Whether you’re looking for business insights or just an entertaining read, I think anyone would enjoy his stories about overseeing Disney during one of the most transformative times in its history.

《大流感The Great Influenza》, by John M. Barry. 

We’re living through an unprecedented time right now. But if you’re looking for a historical comparison, the 1918 influenza pandemic is as close as you’re going to get. Barry will teach you almost everything you need to know about one of the deadliest outbreaks in human history. Even though 1918 was a very different time from today, The Great Influenza is a good reminder that we’re still dealing with many of the same challenges.

《困难时期的好经济学  Good Economics for Hard Times》, by Abhijit V. Banerjee and Esther Duflo.

 Banerjee and Duflo won the Nobel Memorial Prize in Economic Sciences last year, and they’re two of the smartest economists working today. Fortunately for us, they’re also very good at making economics accessible to the average person. Their newest book takes on inequality and political divisions by focusing on policy debates that are at the forefront in wealthy countries like the United States.

生命的呼唤

“I can't breathing!" 有常识的人都知道这是呼救声。

人的呼吸是生命的 first signal, 在正常情况下，人无意感到自己在呼吸，肺在工作，只有当呼吸困难时人才会突然发现窒息是死亡的第一步。

不幸的是当黑人约翰弗洛伊德呼叫“I can't breathing !"时，用膝盖压住他颈部的执法警察却无动于衷，他是执勤太认真了？弗洛伊德在用假钞票换香烟是违法行为，他是个黑人惯犯严惩不待，他还反抗我们执法。。。。。。约翰弗洛伊德的呼叫声越来越弱，警察们也浑然不觉，路旁的行人看不过去，呼叫“check his pulse!”，警察似乎失去了常识良知，这样弗洛伊德被按倒将近9分钟后才松开，他已瘫软在地上，直至救护车来到，也不见急救。。。。。。弗洛伊德就这样死了，路边的人录下了全过程的视频。

当视频在网上一传开，又在媒体的煽动下，由米尼苏达州随即全美各大城市开始抗议游行，年轻人正值疫情被关在家里两个月也憋得慌，冲出家门走上街头，人群聚众情绪亢奋，特别是黑人，本来美国种族危机就如深埋的地雷，此刻不巧在另一场危机中触发点燃，各城市相继一场场暴乱打砸抢，不能再糟糕了。

违法和执法永远是对立的，随着暴动的升级， 一些城市街上出现了国民警卫队全副武装，轻型的坦克，天上直升飞机盘旋，“啪啪啪”的驱赶子弹声，催泪弹。。。。。。更激怒了人群，儿子住在 LA downtown 的公寓里不能安眠，也开始亢奋起来，他说过分的执法会伤害，死更多的人，他为那些上街的朋友焦虑。

人一旦集群似乎很强大，但会愚蠢失去分辨，邪恶也就悄悄渗入，看见电视里纽约市曼哈顿soho的名牌街店都被破窗抢劫，苹果的大玻璃店被砸，出发点想抗议求公平的人忘记了初衷，开始了最简单、最兽性的行为。 。。。。。。谁对谁错已无法分辨，人类的历史可能就是在互相撕打，在野蛮的行径中生存找出路。


 我们应该尊重每个人的生命。美国黑人一直在呼叫“black lives matter", 这是美国历史遗留已久的死结，一触即发。美国是一个移民国家，各种肤色的人种民族都有自己的文化，都有机会追求好的生活，比如我们亚裔人比较勤奋刻苦，努力几年以后就可以安家立业，进入中产阶层。我看到不少黑人在美国许多领域里成为顶尖人物，奥巴马还被选为美国总统，当时我心里一直暗暗地佩服美国人民的伟大。为什麽黑人还一直解不开这个节呢？和儿子讨论后觉得，一个是美国黑人在美国历史上一开始时是奴隶的身份，另一个是黑人没有自己的传统文化，文字，宗教，也没有可以靠背的殷实母国。在潜意识里奴隶的烙印已深深地刻在了他们的肤色里。这是悲哀的，也是值得同情的。

Dancing with virus

高民栋终于可以歇歇了，医院放了他一个星期的假。

“他在国内时已经是南京人民医院开心脏瓣膜手术的数一数二的医生，还是全国青年新长征突击手，”记得他太太曾自豪又得意地告诉我。

来美国后，尽管有心脏手术的履历，但美国成为一名心脏手术医生除了要通过 MD BOARD的考试，通过以后还要临床5年心脏手术专科的训练实习，关键是还得有教授愿意带教你。

再加已有家庭和孩子， 高民栋就考虑改申请麻醉科，当上了一名麻醉师，实习对他来说很轻松，很顺利就完成, 结业。来医院由于有心脏手术的背景，就当上了心脏手术科的麻醉师。

麻醉师在手术室里的工作就是手术医生的助手，负责手术全过程病人的麻醉。如果病人需要上人工呼吸器，他就要插气管，麻醉，操作呼吸器。

平时心脏手术医生一天一般2 台手术，最多3台，对他来说驾轻就熟，手术完了在病房值班。

高民栋工作认真，训练有素，非常敬业，体格健韧，节日周末还经常顶班，太太抱怨，可科里同事还真离不开他。

3月份新冠病毒的疫情在美国开始蔓延，人们还没缓过神来，2月份不是还在中国武汉吗，这个病毒神不知鬼不觉地已来到了身边。医院好像也还没有准备好，其实谁都还没准备好。到了下旬医院病人突然开始增加，救护车不断地停在了急诊室门口，医院按照指令停止一切不必要的手术，包括心脏手术。高医生待命on call。

“Dr Gao, ER is calling ,  they need you!!!"

 “明栋昨晚没回来，护士说，等他空下来会给你回电，也不见有回音。”他太太焦虑地给我留下了微信。

 医院ER现在是什麽情况？    "Tary, Dr Gao is there? may I Talk to him?"，

“he is busy with patient ，intubation intubation......" 嘟嘟嘟电话断了。 情况不太妙啊。


下午我的手机响了起来。

"Can you come to ER? Dr Gao need you right now "

护士已在ER门口等着，手里捧着给我的防护面罩，口罩，gown......我边穿边问，

"what's the situation going on?"


 "Since morning,The patient entered the emergency room never stop! half of the cases required immediate Intubation and  respiratory support."


"unfortunately, Dr. John began to feel unwell in the morning, and the chief of the ER also had a fever! Only Dr. Gao had been Intubation the patient,"


"He said to call you because he should put on the ventilator immediately after inserting the trachea, but these patients are currently unable to be anesthetized, and they have cough and sputum. He is not sure what precisely ventilator setting is should for these patients."

After fully armed, I pushed open the door and saw that all patient's bed was full.

 Dr Gao is kneeling on the ground to examine the patient on the stretcher, preparing for intubation,
Seeing me, he blinked deliberately and started working again。


 When I saw sputum and blood stains on his protective gown and no goggle were on, I was shocked that he will be killed by Coronavirus.

I greeted the nurse to help changing his protective gown, mask, goggle ......

  "ER has run out and is still waiting for the delivery department" the nurse said helplessly

According to the "one-off" requirement, it seems that the hospital's epidemic protection equipment is simply not enough at all。

“This is dancing with the virus, isn't it!”

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4月下旬，我接到高医生太太的短信，她说总算病人少下来了，高民栋可以调班在家歇一歇，

我说，他人怎么样？还是一副钢筋铁骨？炖点鸡汤给他补补吧，疫情还没完呢。


我真有点暗暗佩服高民栋，刀枪不入的金刚身，想起那年一起去南极，在一个火山海湾 ，他竟跟着几个老美纵身跳入海里，还说水是暖的，一点不冷！

为了使你听见

5/20 开始美国50个州解封除了纽约 ，人们可以解禁走出家门涌向海滩，公园。。。。。带着口罩只露出两眼饥渴的脸，渴望着看见人群，呼吸新鲜空气，更希望能回到自己熟悉的工作环境。

人们几个月的恐惧，担忧终于可以稍稍 松驰下来。

 这几个月没有娱乐音乐，没有比赛运动，没有倾情聚会。。。。。人们的心被纠结的没有了情感，生活更没有了诗意。

今天，给予这次瘟疫已失去的将近10万美国人一首诗吧。





为了使你听见

--- 聂鲁达

为了使你听见

我的话

有时候变得脆弱

犹如沙滩上海鸥的足迹。

项链，陶醉的铃铛

配给你的双手光滑如葡萄。

我从远处观看我的话。

它们更像你的而不像我的。

它们爬上我古老的痛苦尤如长春藤。

它也是以同样的方式爬上潮湿的墙壁。

你要为这残酷的游戏负责。

它们正在逃出我黑暗的巢穴。

你充满一切，你充满一切。

它们在你面前占据你所占据的孤独，

它们习惯于我的悲哀甚于你的。

现在我要让它们说我要对你说的，

以便让你听见我要让你听见的。

烦恼的风仍像往常那样拉扯它们。

有时候梦的狂飙依然拽倒它们。

你在我痛苦的声音里倾听其它声音。

古老嘴巴的悲悼，古老哀求的血液。

爱我，伙伴。不要遗弃我。跟我走。

跟我走，伙伴，在这烦恼的波涛上。

但我的话染上了你的爱。

你占据一切，你占据一切。

我正在把它们制成一条没有尽头的项链，

配给你白皙的双手，光滑如葡萄.

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巴勃罗·聂鲁达(1904年7月12日－1973年9月23日)，智利当代著名诗人。

13岁开始发表诗作，1923年发表第一部诗集《黄昏》，1924年发表成名作《二十首情诗和一支绝望的歌》，自此登上智利诗坛。他的诗歌既继承西班牙民族诗歌的传统，又接受了波德莱尔等法国现代派诗歌的影响；既吸收了智利民族诗歌特点，又从沃尔特·惠特曼的创作中找到了自己最倾心的形式。聂鲁达的一生有两个主题，一个是政治，另一个是爱情。他早期的爱情诗集《二十首情诗和一首绝望的歌》被认为是他最著名的作品之一。

To be, or not to be

Hamlet:

To be, or not to be- that is the question:

Whether 'tis nobler in the mind to suffer
The slings and arrows of outrageous fortune
Or to take arms against a sea of troubles,
And by opposing end them. 

To die- to sleep-  No more; and by a sleep to say we end
The heartache, and the thousand natural shocks
That flesh is heir to. 'Tis a consummation
Devoutly to be wish'd. 

To die- to sleep.  

To sleep- perchance to dream: ay, there's the rub!
For in that sleep of death what dreams may come  

When we have shuffled off this mortal coil,
Must give us pause. There's the respect
That makes calamity of so long life.

For who would bear the whips and scorns of time,
Th' oppressor's wrong, the proud man's contumely,
The pangs of despis'd love, the law's delay,
The insolence of office, and the spurns
That patient merit of th' unworthy takes,

When he himself might his quietus make
With a bare bodkin? Who would these fardels bear,
To grunt and sweat under a weary life,

But that the dread of something after death-
The undiscover'd country, from whose bourn
No traveller returns- puzzles the will,  

And makes us rather bear those ills we have
Than fly to others that we know not of?

Thus conscience does make cowards of us all,
And thus the native hue of resolution
Is sicklied o'er with the pale cast of thought,
And enterprises of great pith and moment
With this regard their currents turn awry
And lose the name of action.

生存还是毁灭？这是个问题。

究竟哪样更高贵，去忍受那狂暴的命运无情的摧残 还是挺身去反抗那无边的烦恼，把它扫一个干净。

去死，去睡就结束了，如果睡眠能结束我们心灵的创伤和肉体所承受的千百种痛苦，那真是生存求之不得的天大的好事。去死，去睡，

去睡，也许会做梦！

唉，这就麻烦了，即使摆脱了这尘世 可在这死的睡眠里又会做些什么梦呢？真得想一想，就这点顾虑使人受着终身的折磨，

谁甘心忍受那鞭打和嘲弄，受人压迫，受尽侮蔑和轻视，忍受那失恋的痛苦，法庭的拖延，衙门的横征暴敛，默默无闻的劳碌却只换来多少凌辱。但他自己只要用把尖刀就能解脱了。

谁也不甘心，呻吟、流汗拖着这残生，可是对死后又感觉到恐惧，又从来没有任何人从死亡的国土里回来，因此动摇了，宁愿忍受着目前的苦难 而不愿投奔向另一种苦难。

顾虑就使我们都变成了懦夫，使得那果断的本色蒙上了一层思虑的惨白的容颜，本来可以做出伟大的事业，由于思虑就化为乌有了，丧失了行动的能力。

modern English translation of Hamlet’s soliloquy:
 --by Ben Florman


To live, or to die? That is the question.
Is it nobler to suffer through all the terrible things
fate throws at you, or to fight off your troubles,
and, in doing so, end them completely?
To die, to sleep—because that’s all dying is—
and by a sleep I mean an end to all the heartache
and the thousand injuries that we are vulnerable to—
that’s an end to be wished for!
To die, to sleep. To sleep, perhaps to dream—yes,
but there’s there’s the catch. Because the kinds of
dreams that might come in that sleep of death—
after you have left behind your mortal body—
are something to make you anxious.
That’s the consideration that makes us suffer
the calamities of life for so long.
Because who would bear all the trials and tribulations of time—
the oppression of the powerful, the insults from arrogant men,
the pangs of unrequited love, the slowness of justice,
the disrespect of people in office,
and the general abuse of good people by bad—
when you could just settle all your debts
using nothing more than an unsheathed dagger?
Who would bear his burdens, and grunt
and sweat through a tiring life, if they weren’t frightened
of what might happen after death—
that undiscovered country from which no visitor returns,
which we wonder about and which makes us
prefer the troubles we know rather than fly off
to face the ones we don’t? Thus, the fear of
death makes us all cowards, and our natural
willingness to act is made weak by too much thinking.
Actions of great urgency and importance
get thrown off course because of this sort of thinking,
and they cease to be actions at all.
But wait, here is the beautiful Ophelia!
[To OPHELIA] Beauty, may you forgive all my sins in your prayers.